bending

bending down to pick up a elastic band
or not
my eye catches a racial slur
or is it
on the park bench beside me
African and Asian slurs
with two purple lines through it

pause, my head snaps back
the elastic band in my hand
i read
next to it
olivia waz hur
second looking at the slur, notice it says
I
before it

question - so is it
self identification
self mutilation
self degradation
self denial
selfish

or not